Am I Old Enough To Be a Grown Up?

This post is totally random, so feel free not to even respond I just have to get this off of my chest! Brandon and I always talk about the “future” and we are on a 5 year plan (well it’s a 5 year plan, but after each year I never lower the number and it stays a “5 year plan” in my head even thought it should be down to a 2 year plan). I just finished all my prerequisites and applied for Dental Hygiene programs, and I had a little panic attack! My future of being done with school, buying a house, having kids and all that grown up stuff is coming up and it freaked me out! I don’t know what to do I have stayed up until like 1am each night worrying about it (as if there is even a solution). I know this may sound lame to everyone else but I am terrified of growing up. I don’t know I am just panicking. Brandon is my exact opposite when it comes to stuff like this and he doesn’t worry about it at all. He actually says he is excited and can’t wait. Well I don’t feel any better now that I got this off of my chest in fact I am kind of having a hard time breathing just thinking about it! Have a good night and hopefully when the time actually comes for me to do all of these things I will be more relaxed about it!

Well nothing new is really going on. Brandon’s eye is healing pretty well, they are going to keep the stitches in for as long and they can, so it makes his eye look kind of weird. He can already see better out of his eye than what it was before. His sight should continually get better and can take up to a year, but they don’t know what it will be in the end because they don’t know how well his donor’s vision was. The doctor said it was an excellent tissue, and is hoping that Brandon won’t even need contacts or glasses anymore for that eye!
I am sure a lot of people who have been in a relationship for a long time can relate that after a while of being together you get comfortable and you stop working on how healthy you are being. Then one day you look in the mirror and cant figure out how the heck your body got to the way it is. That is kind of what Brandon and I have been going through so we wanted to start working out and eating right. I am not going to say we are going on a diet because when I think about dieting I get all sad and think about the foods I am missing out on and then I go eat all the fast food I can think of. So, we are going to change our lifestyle!
We joined the Lifetime Fitness Gym (I actually have had my membership for a long time but used him as an excuse not to go) but Brandon finally joined and I am so glad he did. If anyone gets the chance to go to this gym they really should, it seriously is so much fun to work out as a couple and the gym is amazing. Brandon is even a good sport and goes to the classes with me! So far we have done a spin class and the kickboxing class, they both kicked our asses but it was a lot of fun. Brandon also found out that they teach a 7 week ballroom dance class for couples that we are thinking about doing. So far it has been a really fun thing to do together and I hope we stick to it and go as often as we can.
We took “Before” pictures of each other in our bathing suites and I was going to post them but after seeing what I looked like, I decided we are going to wait till we have the after pictures! I hope we stick to our new healthy lifestyle!